Today was just horrible and I can’t get over all the bad news. I have been sitting here watching Grey’s Anatomy and my eyes keep on leaking (which I am blaming on the show, not life…. but it probably is the latter). I just want to fall asleep… help.
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Today my heart swings.
Can I stop being an emotional mess now?
Anonymous asked: Hello. Hope you can get some sleep. Davis is cold. How's Vallejo? I have a lab exam today. I don't know how I will do because I can't anticipate what will be on the test. My stomach hurts from watching a YouTube video. If you get very bored today, I suggest looking up PokeAwesome by Egoraptor. Okay, hi again. Bye.
Is this you, Alex? I feel like it is you who tends to leave me anonymous messages for some reason… I dunno. I slept until my head felt better then spent much needed time with family. I hope the lab exam went well! Those were always kind of fun. Better than other exams… I’ll try to remember to watch that video later…. for some reason I am watching 26 & Pregnant. Don’t laugh at my life :(
These past 24 hours…
have not been the business. My heart is still broken from the news of Jairo late last night. I just can’t believe that I saw him a week ago and I will never see him again. I’ve mentioned before that I am bad with death…. and it is definitely true. Meh. Then I had to cancel on Whitney this morning because I had a migraine which refused to go away. It woke me up at 5 am and no medicine nor numerous glasses of water would help. Luckily, she still made it to her appointment in the city, but I still feel so bad because I hate canceling/flaking on people. So Whitney, if you see this, I AM SO SORRY. Even though I’ve already apologized and you assured me it was alright… I still feel so bad :(
On top of the migraine, I received bad news about my grandmother. She is in need of a liver transplant and if she is able to get it, she MAY have five years. If she doesn’t, it will be fewer. I am in disbelief. She has always lived in a different state than me and it breaks my heart that I can’t spend lots of time with her. She is currently in Minnesota and I know they are planning on moving back to Florida… so hopefully I can save up to go see her.
To sum today up: my heart is in pieces.
“Literature, real literature, must not be gulped down like some potion which may be good for the heart or good for the brain—the brain, that stomach of the soul. Literature must be taken and broken to bits, pulled apart, squashed—then its lovely reek will be smelt in the hollow of the palm, it will be munched and rolled upon the tongue with relish; then, and only then, its rare flavor will be appreciated at its true worth and the broken and crushed parts will again come together in your mind and disclose the beauty of a unity to which you have contributed something of your own blood.” ― Vladimir Nabokov, Lectures on Russian Literature
